Thursday, March 20, 2008

Bad Combination

I have a brand new baby (one week today) and a sick 4 year old. That's a bad combination. I'm trying to keep Jace away from Alek and I'm trying to keep myself a safe distance from Jace so that when I hold Alek I won't get him sick. But it is so hard. The result of this situation is that now Casey is getting Jace's cough because he's been the one taking care of Jace for the most part. So now there's one more person who might get Alek sick. And keeping my distance from Jace hasn't been easy. I don't think I have hugged or even sat by Jace since Monday. So by now he's probably feeling like the most dejected four year old ever.

So here I am feeling like the worst mom in the world for basically ignoring Jace, and worrying about every sneeze Alek does, when I check on a blog I've been following and I'm brought to tears. My sister-in law's friend just had a baby girl this afternoon. Her baby is beautiful and the delivery went well. But her little one has a heart defect and will need open-heart surgery as soon as possible to save her life. Suddenly I feel guilty for feeling like I've had a rough few days. And instead, my heart goes out to the parents of a little girl who truly has a rough time ahead. Suddenly I have a new perspective on life and what really matters.

3 comments:

Holly said...

Just because your situation might not be as dire as your friends, it doesn't mean you should feel guilty for feeling what you do/did.
Your feelings are valid and you shouldn't feel the need to apologize for them. It's really too bad about your friend, that would be so hard. I hope everything goes alright for them. Remember too that you just had a baby and your emotions might be a little closer to the surface than usual. Don't beat yourself up for being a great mom with 3 great kids. You're doing a wonderful job!

Christy said...

Connie, I totally agree with Holly! Don't feel bad for worrying over Alek--sick newborns are a big deal! We each have to deal with what's going on in our own house, even if that seems like nothing compared to someone else's trial. I'm sure Jace will understand, too. He surely loves your new little man and understands, at least somewhat, that you're trying to keep him well! Getting used to 3 kids (and all that goes with that, like this) is a tough juggle, and it will take some time, but I know you'll do great!

I hope everything turns out as well as can be for that wonderful little girl!

shana said...

I think all of us that are following Michele's baby Gracie have surfacing emotions. When you see someone go through something very trying, it seems to make us appreciate what we have, even if it isn't perfect. P.S. it sounds like Gracie is doing as well as expected and her surgery will be on Mon. or Tues.